December 2010
dear Stomach cramp .. you know that you are so irritating…
November 2010
Bitch.
Me: I don't know why I'm crying now.
You: Why cry? Don't cry. Just one question, why dyou keep asking questions about my friend?
Me: I just wanted to know the name. Just that. I swear there were no thoughts whatsoever.
You: There's always a TRUE reason for every question. When you feel like telling me the truth, then text me. Bye.
Me: If ydon't trust me enough then fine. I've said, just wanted to know. I expect to be treated the same as to how I do you. I don't go all sensitive & protective each time you talk about your girl friends. Give me a break. What did I do wrong, to deserve this. It was just a question. I don't like this. I want my old life back. Sorry.
You: Old life back eh? What are you suggesting?
Me: I've been true to you since day one. Why dyou still doubt me? I've stopped looking at other guys already. I keep my comments shut. What, now I can't even ask for a name?
You: I'm only asking you one simple question. What dyou mean when you say ywant your old life back?
Me: Simple days.
You: What days. Be more specific.
Me: Simple. No complications. No worries.
You: Tell me the fucking truth. Don't make it complicated. What dyou mean by you want your old days back?
Me: Who's making it complicated? If you're too daft to understand what I mean by simple, check the fucking dictionary. Old days, simple days. Not having to worry about shits. Like this. There you have it. Need me to remind you again, you asked for it. If you're still too daft & shallow to understand, try swallowing the dictionary. Let it digest & I bet you'll become Shakespeare by noon.
You: Old days like being single?
Me: Hell no. Where ever did you get that from.
You: I get it when you said you don't have to care about all these shits. Swallowed the dictionary & there I got it. Is it wrong? Have any suggestions on what dictionary I have to swallow next?
Me: One can be in a rship w/o facing this if both parties compromise. Which dictionary did you swallow? I bet it was a DICKtionary instead. Try swallowing Oxford dictionary. It's legit & international & it's fucking basic english. Just the perfect one for you.
You: Fine. I get it. Basic english will be good for someone who's a dropout like me. I get this many times from EVERYONE but not expecting it from you. I rather sleep. Goodnight. Oh ya, maybe next time yshould just find a guy who's a university graduate or something. Not someone who's working as a rider, a low life job. A job with mostly a group of dropouts. Bye.
Me: Night.
You: None of my friends have put me in a position where I feel so fucking low in community. NONE. One thing that separates dropouts & those highly educated people, we dropouts may not have the basic intellect like yguys do, but we have the basic respect for everyone. & for yguys, it goes the other way round. Night.
You: I know ydon't feel right if a dropout is teaching you something. But as a dropout, having basic respect is like having a heart. When you have none, means you're heartless. Bye. Don't reply. Share your genius comments to someone who can understand your basic knowledge.
Me: Try to stop me from replying. Ysaying I look down on you, I don't respect you. Reminisce & try to fucking remember what told you that night at the beach. Well, I guess I'm the one exception, to have made you feel this fucking low. Yes I'm sarcastic. & ymust be cursing me for being heartless now. So be it. One thing yshould have already guessed about me, I hit people hard verbally. Because that's when it really hurts. Much more than physical pain. But if you're gonna let me crumble you with merely words, then maybe it's true that dropouts are the lowest point in the social hierarchy.
You: Yeah. I remember. That dropouts are one of the factors for you to live your life with. Yes we are the lowest in the community. I am proud to be a dropout, despite that. Because we are the ones who will live independently. We don't depend on others to live. At least we dropouts are not as arrogant as those who think this world is theirs. We may work under them, but we have a better understanding of what life is then them. If we dropouts one day become big in life, we don't look down on others because we know how they feel. Whereas when you people suddenly drop to our standard, that is when you realize it is too late to understand the meaning of life.
Me: Ydon't remember me saying that I don't fucking see you as a fucking dropout? That I didn't fucking mind being with you? That I wouldn't have led you on, upon knowing that you're a fucking dropout when ytold me that first night? I'm not having this conversation with you anymore. It's over.
Me: Well I'm sorry if it hurts you so badly, that we're not of the same 'standard in community', as how you put it. Then maybe yshould find some other girl who belongs in the same category as you next time. So you as a couple can understand each other more as yknow how it's like to be in the lowest point of the fucking community.
You: Are we over?
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We talk shit even though we don't like people...
I’ve tried to forget you. I’ve tried to move on....
you thought me more dhen enuff untill i realised,...
You’ve taught me and showed me many things. You’ve taught me I can love, that people can care about me. Or so I thought, you showed me the feeling of being in someone’s arms when they mean the world to you. The feeling of compassion. So many wonderful things. Thank you for that. You’ve also showed me that people break promises, that people don’t always hold true to their word. You’ve taught me...
21november2010 ~ SUNDAY
The mostt hardest thingg in life is whenn you tried not to love someone.. when actually you rallie did…” p/s weyyllaaa .. its not love that c0unts… its aboutt, you beingg wyff me when i nyd you…even not as a lover but as a friend..
Drop Deaddd HAWT ((: ohmyyyGODD ~
theeveeya:
ALRIGHT . YOU GUYS ARE FUCKING PISSING ME THE FUCK...
emptyboxofcrayons:
You people are the reason why I wanna litterally stop fucking tumblr. gawd damn. I swear I unfollowed like 50 people. grow up. please.
love,peace,&rocketships.: Hey. →
emptyboxofcrayons:
Do you remember when we use to text each other all the time.. or even hellllaaa late at night? Our conversations would last forever. & you always got frustrated because I was the one who kept falling asleep on you >< But you wouldnt mind. Because the moment you wake up, you saw my reply text. …
you know what pisses me off? Your fucking...
emptyboxofcrayons:
yeah? what of it bitch. there’s a reason why he’s my ex. Enjoy my sloppy seconds. How do I taste?
20november2010
wellllaaa…haappiee bufdayyy to myy mOther ((: !!sEmOgAaa dipAnjanGKann umOoor && murAa rezeKii ((: grrr… okae, so today supposed to be a boringg sayy for me.. Saturday Saturday Saturday .. whyy ar you freakingg bored todayy )): haishh… i slept muchh tyz afternun… & get up revising myy lecture notes.. dhaen slip agaen .. waliowww!!! gynie mcm leyy...
darlingyoufuckedup-:
i’m tired of losing friends
i’m tired of fighting
i’m tired of being lied to
i’m tired of drama
i’m tired of crying
i’m tired of never being happy
i’m tired of trying so hard, and have it be one sided
i’m tired of being bitter
i’m tired of being used.
i’m tired of not sleeping.
i’m tired of missing people
i’m tired of hiding my feelings.
i’m tired of missing...
THE HERMIONE BITCH STARE.
littlemissdorkette:
“I’m always mad at him.”
19november2010
when yu saw hym walking wyf your own bestfren…wat wyll that be the feeling.. i kn0ww im no where in belong here.. im no one c0mpared to dhem.. theyy are prityy, loud-speak, singer .. but d0es’nt mean yu can totallyy ignore me standing just a few inch …spudity strikes! i hate you !!!
When the teacher says, "find a partner"...
Me and my friend look at each other like
18november2010 )): for
The first tyme I cried.. when my dad skolded me.. I juz kept myself quite and sat infront of the lappyy duing my assignments.. Whhyy never ever once theyy understand me :’(( wat hmewrk pun sala.. Haishh.. Dhen my brother„ force me too off the lappyy )): wth!!! I’m realie upset )): no one understand me)):
0kaee.. Todayyy wass supposed to start myy dayy alone )): yestday my dayy?? Define?? Sad.. Cz I’ve cried))’: tearful moment.. Update wat happen wen I fwee )):
“People say to always follow your heart. But when the heart is broken, which...”
Wait for the guy who will be your best friend. The person who will drop everything to be with you at any time of the day, no matter what. The guy who makes you smile like no other guy can and when he looks at you.. you know he needs you. The guy who thinks you’re beautiful even when your hair’s a mess and you have no make-up on. The one who will call you just to hear your voice. But most of all,...
My favorite kinds of people to talk to:
scarletberries:
youbelongwithmex:
Those who reply fast.
Those who aren’t annoying.
Those who make me feel like I’m not annoying them.
Those who I can talk to first and they’ll talk to me first once in a while.
Those who will come back after saying BRB.
Those who can keep a conversation alive.
Those who are funny, sweet, etc.
THIS.
Cmon cmon!! Cgh.. Whyy are yu duingg tyz to me.. Call me.. Call me.. )): I’m eagerlyy waiting for the result :’(( ya Allah, terangilah hati dorg untuk tepon akuu)): Amin…
